| I forgot the PIN to one of my accounts, one that I'd been using almost every day for two years. Saturday comes and it vanishes from my memory-- well, not the numbers, I had the correct numbers (it turns out) but couldn't get the sequence right. However, even the individual numbers I entered didn't feel right. Again, I insist, dementia will be a blessing at the end; the feeling of forgetting like that was good, like I'd never had the stress of carrying that little number series around in my head. It had just never existed.
On a few of these VC tracks I did a thing where I made a midi file of a song from the 80s and used that as a sequence to trigger a large array of samples, including text from the book. Or another approach was to play the actual 80s track into the trigger section of a gate then send a sine wave thru the I/O section. I'd repeat this with another track and another sine wave at, say, a 7th below the first or something. Repeat until I had 5 notes playing with the duration etc shaped by the dynamics of the original 80s track.
So I'd have a handful of these sorts of musical pieces, these process things where the 80s were like a breeze through it-- and then I'd exert some control editing them together with a text segment to make some kind of radio show that didn't bore me.
First it was text, then it was a plan, then it was music, now it's a "record."
It's gonna be nice to forget all that, a few months from now. While getting the mastered version approved I hope I can just enjoy it. Actually, I think if I can remember how the track came about exactly that might be a failure and I'd have to redo it.
No process is precious enough to have to keep the result regardless. The ultimate benchmark is a comparison to the original text version: am I carrying that across? And it seems like it was written by someone else, the book, especially after I spent so much time going over it and all of the notes I had from when I was writing it. |
